Ship It, Fish!

like.. instead of paying attention to everyone else at the table, watching what they are doing and whatever. try spending a session paying attention only to yourself. after every hand write notes on yourself. how you felt after every hand, at each bet. when each card came out. if your mind was here or if it was racing off in all directions. if you were calm or not. if you were all over the place or going slow and being deliberate. if you were in control or not. if you were happy or not. upset or not. if you felt heat or angry or frustrated or if you wanted to cry or whatever. write all that down. ignore everyone else, write notes on yourself. if you are playing live, don't look for tells on everyone else, just pay attention to how you feel instead the entire time. see if you get upset at some point. try to figure out what sets you off. see if your play changes at any point. see if your head feels funny. if you get dizzy or you feel weird or you feel kind of out of control or out of touch. try testing if you are tired. look at your watch and time yourself counting backwards by 3 from 100 at the beginning of the session when you are fresh and then later on, midway through the session when you still feel fresh, backwards by 3 from 100. then right after you take a bad beat and you "calm down". try it then, see how long it takes. are you still concentrating as well? later on in the night, try it then. how well are you concentrating then? figure out how you work.

"Know the enemy and know yourself; in a hundred battles you will never be in peril. When you are ignorant of the enemy, but know yourself, your chances of winning or losing are equal. If ignorant both of your enemy and yourself, you are certain in every battle to be in peril." - Sun Tzu